Echo

the battle

jafa73 — Wed, 24 Aug 2011 05:26:00 +0000

It feels like a battle today. Tired. Stressed. Got stuff on my mind that’s making it hard to concentrate. Things haven’t worked out today like I thought they were going to. What’s new really? This is life I know, but today it just feels like a real battle… and it’s waging in my head. I should know by now just how powerful thoughts can be… how they can pull you in any direction. And if you are feeling sad and tired, then it’s easy to follow the stuff that feeds that sadness and tiredness…

the battle continues, but it feels better just talking about it

black hole

jafa73 — Mon, 18 Jul 2011 14:06:20 +0000

Jumped into one tonight. Thought about comfort eating… mainly chocolate and ice cream. Bought the choc but haven’t eaten it yet. I know it’s silly… the more I type the sillier this all seems. Tired tonight. Frustrated. Had such a good day too. Should stop jumping.

Conference 2011

jafa73 — Fri, 08 Jul 2011 05:51:03 +0000

Awesome SMG Conference this year. Challenge, training, prophecy, worship. What else could you ask for? A real mountain top experience…

but I’m not ready to come down the mountain yet to the everyday

Have a new favourite song: ‘Revelation Song’ written by Jennie Lee Riddle. Hope the link works below. Am a bit out of practise!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u8Pj2ha9uzM&feature=related

Learning to love the song

jafa73 — Fri, 01 Jul 2011 02:34:31 +0000

Listening to my Bruce Cockburn mix at the moment. Am finding more and more that when I am feeling low or sad that music helps lift me. Am lucky that I can listen to music at work- would have been even more unproductive this week without it.
Am glad the term is nearly over. I’m tiring quickly now… has been a very busy, long and emotional school term with family stuff going on too. Looking forward to a rest.

I’m back

jafa73 — Mon, 27 Jun 2011 02:26:30 +0000

Just been reading my blog. I hadn’t realised just how long it had been. Seems like ages ago. Would love to tell you that all is well. Would love to say that I haven’t gone backwards with depression.

I don’t have a place to speak at the moment. I listen… it’s my job, it’s the role I have in most of my relationships. It’s just what I do. I need someone to listen to me. Even if no one reads this I will have had the chance to say something.

Today I am sad.

Don’t want to

jafa73 — Tue, 18 Nov 2008 12:30:46 +0000

Seem to spend a lot of my time saying that I don’t want to do stuff, running away from people and my commitments. Then when I do walk away for a while I seem to spend my time blobbing in front of the television or sleeping. I know I have choices and that I can choose to do something different. I don’t know. Part of me thinks I should be better than this.

Am injured again. I chose something different, something I was looking forward to. My body just hasn’t held up its end of the bargain.

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jafa73 — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 09:39:05 +0000

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Originally uploaded by Jane Adamson.

More irises.

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jafa73 — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 09:33:23 +0000

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Originally uploaded by Jane Adamson.

I’d love to take the kudos for the magnificent looking irises I have in the backyard, but irises being irises, I’ve done nothing to them over the last 2 years and they are doing their thing in an amazing way this year. I am blessed!

Frustration

jafa73 — Sat, 11 Oct 2008 09:01:34 +0000

After a 2 year break I decided that I would like to play softball again. I have been playing it since primary school, and at club since I was 13 (apart from a few seasons). I was really looking forward to playing today, although a little nervous, and was relieved to get my first safe hit. Everything going well until I ran- something that I had been doing for the whole match- and ‘backed up’ first base and I felt my left calf muscle tear. It’s not the first time- I have torn both calf muscles previously- and this time it’s not as bad as before. Still, there goes being able to go to the gym for a couple of weeks, and I now have a slower start to the season (complete with some rehab).

I’m just frustrated. Maybe I’m getting old.

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jafa73 — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 13:52:04 +0000

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Originally uploaded by Jane Adamson.

As promised a picture of the girls… better late than never. They still don’t have names but I think they can cope somehow!